Husband and Father

To Kayla Faith,

Don't tell your mother but I decided to agree to Kayla Faith as your name almost in the beginning. I love that name. One thing I've learned in life is to put God first and others second and myself last. This doesn't mean that you don't stick up for yourself in certain situations. This does mean that you look for opportunities to put your needs aside for the em-betterment of others. I can tell you that I love your mom more than any other person I've met. I think about her all the time. Sometimes, she drives me crazy but through the emotions of life, I simply cannot imagine life without her. She loves Jesus with her whole heart. She is always trying to do things that puts others in the position to succeed. She's passionate about everything. You have no idea yet. You're still in the womb. You're now around 20 weeks old, i felt you kick the other night and last week found out that you are indeed a precious little girl. I'm so excite to meet you. But always know that I will love you your whole life, but next to Jesus your mom is the love of my life. I pray that God one day reveals to you the man of your dreams. I pray his heart puts Christ first in everything. After that, I pray he considers your heart in his every decision. It's not always easy nor does it come natural. But I find that everything your mom asks me, I want to do for Jenn. I've seen her heart broken, being with her during that moment, I've made the decision that I will do everything in my power to protect her heart. I promise no less for you. Being a Husband and a Father is the greatest gift and challenge. Like everything else, my number one value is to put Christ first. I pray every night that you will do the same. The minute you don't have Christ the starting point is the minute you begin to lose purpose. Without purpose, you have apathy. In apathy, you're bound to sin. Sin causes death. Having said that, "God i pray that in every aspect you're the reason for my decisions, actions and thoughts. I am grateful for your many blessings, especially my family. Please enable me to be an example and witness of your love. Protect my wife and daughter. Let their hearts forever know that you are their source of strength. I love and thank you for who you are....As the saying goes, 'as for me and my house we will serve the Lord'."

David

Can I be the man in your life that God has called me to be?

So many things race through my mind. There's no doubt that people refer to life and career as being a rat race. In trying to do good, help those around me, and in general being everything that I was made to be (as corny as that sounds) has made me get so consumed at times in the things that don't matter. Fortunately, I do have a relationship with God. Fortunately, He reminds me of this all the time. I think my fatal weakness is that in my weakness I tend to hold on to hurts and failures. I constantly think that I'm not worthy of any good or success. Those times that I take that worry and stress to the next level, meaning it begins to break me not only mentally but at times has shown physically. My prayer for you today is that you always look to God as I have, even when you mess up. More importantly, my prayer is that you learn what I haven't learned which is to let it go. Learn that people see failures and hold it against you but God does not. When you do mess up and you begin to feel that corrective feeling inside, learn that is normal. After you've had those moments of reconcile, those moments that no one will ever come to know but you and God, let it go. I've spent to many hours obsessing over things that God has promised to forget when we repent. Having said all this, I promised to let go of the mistakes I will undoubtedly make with you. My prayer in doing so is that you'll learn to do the same. I'm not even sure I can teach this. But hopefully in your own journey, God will teach you one day. I love and pray for you nightly. I cannot wait to meet you. Always know that God was my source for keeping to want to live, it never seems like it until you're down the path of life and can look back that you can see that God was there every step. But I choose this faith, this life, because I'd rather look back at my life and go through the tougher things and look back to see that what I've done God has approved than to take the easier route and do what everyone else does. I strive for this. On that note, I'm not sure I can be the man in your life that God has called me to be, but I am sure gonna try.