Can I be the man in your life that God has called me to be?

So many things race through my mind. There's no doubt that people refer to life and career as being a rat race. In trying to do good, help those around me, and in general being everything that I was made to be (as corny as that sounds) has made me get so consumed at times in the things that don't matter. Fortunately, I do have a relationship with God. Fortunately, He reminds me of this all the time. I think my fatal weakness is that in my weakness I tend to hold on to hurts and failures. I constantly think that I'm not worthy of any good or success. Those times that I take that worry and stress to the next level, meaning it begins to break me not only mentally but at times has shown physically. My prayer for you today is that you always look to God as I have, even when you mess up. More importantly, my prayer is that you learn what I haven't learned which is to let it go. Learn that people see failures and hold it against you but God does not. When you do mess up and you begin to feel that corrective feeling inside, learn that is normal. After you've had those moments of reconcile, those moments that no one will ever come to know but you and God, let it go. I've spent to many hours obsessing over things that God has promised to forget when we repent. Having said all this, I promised to let go of the mistakes I will undoubtedly make with you. My prayer in doing so is that you'll learn to do the same. I'm not even sure I can teach this. But hopefully in your own journey, God will teach you one day. I love and pray for you nightly. I cannot wait to meet you. Always know that God was my source for keeping to want to live, it never seems like it until you're down the path of life and can look back that you can see that God was there every step. But I choose this faith, this life, because I'd rather look back at my life and go through the tougher things and look back to see that what I've done God has approved than to take the easier route and do what everyone else does. I strive for this. On that note, I'm not sure I can be the man in your life that God has called me to be, but I am sure gonna try.